"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same."

I have made the choice to block everyone out today. I turned off my phone and I have no desire to talk to anyone. I know deep down that I am not dealing with my emotions in an orderly fashion but I just want to be numb. The lyrics from a song by The Fray keeps playing over and over in my head..."Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same...." I know that I made the right decision and it just sucks...sucks, sucks, sucks! I am struggling because I know that I did not show up in the relationship the way that I could have. I knew on Tuesday that this was a temporary thing and I knew I could not drag it out any longer because there was another person involved whose feelings were on the line....and now that everything has been said and done, I am feeling like a huge part of me is missing. I want to run to Arizona and just ignore life as I've known it the past few months. So I guess where I'm at right now is I can run and hide or I can take this as a blessing and learn and grow from it. Anyway, just in a shitty place.